The Straw Saint


hitchhiking rural Virginia

for those who walk alone

The road never ends.

It only folds into itself—

like grief.


Back then I walked it,

night-shift hunger in my belly,

Virginia fields unrolling like

the back of some sleeping god,

watching,

waiting.


Corn rose on both sides,

spines crackling in the dark wind—

as if they knew I didn’t belong.

Cars slid past,

ghosts in chrome skins,

their light spilling over me

like judgment.

I held out my hand,

not for mercy,

but to prove

I was still there.


I remember Lincoln Street—

the porch swing creaking

when no one was in it,

the smell of radiator heat and dust,

and the attic—

always colder than it should have been.

My childhood house:

a tomb with windows,

floorboards that knew my name.



He stood in the field like a question

no one dared to answer.

Not a farmer’s charm—

something older.


Hood low,

arms flung wide

as if to bless,

or to crucify.

His robe,

mildewed and knotted with twine,

barely stirred.

Yet the air around him

hummed.


They say he’s made of straw.

I think he’s made of everything

you try to leave behind—

the echo of a slammed door,

the click of a lock,

your mother’s back

disappearing into another silence.

He smells like basements,

like rust on your tongue

after a dream of blood.



He was there

when I walked past the fields as a boy—

bare feet tough as bark,

bone-tired from stocking shelves

until the store lights blinked out.

He never waved.

He didn’t need to.

His stillness

was a kind of knowing.


Sometimes I thought he whispered—

but it was only the wind

trying to sound like someone I’d lost.

I never looked long.

You don’t stare at things

that feel like remembering.



The Straw Saint isn’t evil.

He just is—

like rot,

like time.

He is what waits

when no one comes for you,

what grows

when you forget to pray.


He doesn’t haunt a house.

He haunts after:

after the shift ends,

after the rides stop,

after your mother’s light

stays off too long.



If you see him—

arms wide,

catching rain that never falls—

don’t stop.

Don’t wave.

Don’t even think.


Just walk

like your name depends on it.


Because he’s not watching you.

He’s watching

who you used to be.


And he remembers

every step you ever took

in the dark.


He never forgets

the ones who walk alone.


GBS
1997

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