Before the Sun
I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited. - Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath I wake up before the sun like the day owes me money.
The Right Tool
There are times when I am convinced I am unfit for any human relationship. I cannot escape the feeling that I have been made for a purpose, but I cannot find it. - Letters to Felice , Franz Kafka Long time now I’ve felt like a tool
Like a Squirrel on a Wheel
I used to analyze myself down to the last thread, used to compare myself with others, recalled all the smallest glances, smiles and words... interpreted everything in a bad light... and in the midst of my laughing, I'd give way to sadness, fall into ludicrous despondency and once again start the whole process all over again - in short, I went round and round like a squirrel on a wheel. - Fyodor Dostoyevsky I was standing by the vending machine at five in the morning,
